“I thought there was something wrong with me," The Real Housewives of New York City alum admitted.
Jill Zarin lost her beloved husband Bobby Zarin on January 13 after a long battle with cancer, and she has been taking her grief day by day.
“I put on good makeup, I have good days and bad days," The Real Housewives of New York City alum told Page Six at a book launch party for Dr. Daryl Gioffre's Get Off Your Acid on Thursday in New York City. "Anything can trigger me to cry and then I’m fine, so it’s just a process."
She admitted that she didn't cry at Bobby's funeral.
“I thought there was something wrong with me," she said. "I’m like, ‘Why am I the only one not crying and everybody’s crying,’ because I had already mourned, weeks before, months before, a year ago."
Her analysis is that she was already all cried out from all the tears she shed leading up to his passing.
“Nobody cried more than me in the hospital, literally. It’s crazy. But now, Bobby would want me to move on,” she shared. She said that friends and family have supported her through this tough time but, "it doesn't fill the hole" left in her heart after Bobby's passing.
Jill recently made an emotional return to Bobby's company Zarin Fabrics for the first time since he died.
“It was very surreal coming into Zarin Fabrics today. It’s the first time I've been back since Bobby died," she told Extra. "I didn't expect to be emotional when I walked in the door. He would have been 72 two weeks ago ... it's surreal. But he's here.”